Sometimes I feel I don't quite belong in this community, even though I love you a lot and enjoy being here more than anything.
Like, I don't have the habit of reading doujins (only read less than 10 in my life) nor manga, I never played an eroge nor gacha, I didn't watch most of your beloved animes from the 2000's that you like a lot, also never played most of the cultured otaku games like touhou or persona, don't know about the sphere of spanish content creators and spanish culture overall, I'm not the in majority of your community's age demographic that you seem to prefer and even though I understand enough to follow almost everything, I still don't speak spanish, so I kinda feel like an outsider when I speak at any time.
I'm just someone that loves normal games and the anime culture since childhood that so happened to be a massive perverted lolicon degenerate that loves hentai, and he somehow found this cute, talented piña and fell in love with her and everything she does. All of those months following you have been so unique for me because it's the first time I devote myself so much to someone, simply because I love you so much that I want to see you happy the same way you make me happy. So, because of that, when I see all of those "incompatibilities" that I mentioned earlier, I can't help but to have this insecurity that I don't actually belong here and I'm just the "foreigner". I'm still glad and grateful that you're showing me so much new stuff about lolicon, anime, games (like the watchalong of kodomo no jikan) and spanish culture/language in general, but I still can't shake off this feeling.
Anyway, you already have a lot to deal with and here I am blobbering about myself looking like a child seeking for her mother's approval for no reason, sorry about that, promise it won't happen again, just wanted to puke this out to see if it makes me feel better, I had a preety shitty day today XD, but I'm glad you're here to make me forget about it just for a while, te amo muito 💚